The end of day 4

I've had a lot of people how we are all feeling now that Oksana is gone.  The title of this blog says it all.  Honestly, we haven't been able to relax yet.  Just when we realize the difference in our house, we also start to fear day 90.  I know for a fact that I have PTSD from her.  Larry and I are both seeing therapists now to deal with what has happened to us over the last 2 years (or maybe 5).  I posted a message on my Parents of kids with Schizophrenia group on Facebook explaining to them that we can't relax for fear of day 90.  They were all super supportive and assured me that they had similar experiences.  I got ranges from 5-30 days when they were finally able to relax.  It doesn't help that we are dealing with a whole bunch of behaviors out of Anya right now that we have no doubt is a direct result of the impact Oksana has had on her. 

We haven't seen Oksana since Thursday.  We will see her again this Thursday for a doctor's appointment.  I am going to bring extra pull ups and pants.  She will go to the doctor no matter what.  If she chooses to wet herself and/or has any significant behaviors we will send her back to residential as soon as her appointment is over.  If she can hold herself together we will take her out to lunch.  I think going to lunch will be motivation enough to do good so I'm not too worried.

In other news, I worked my first day at the front desk of the boys' school on Friday.  I really enjoyed it!  My next day of work is Wednesday when I will work front desk in the morning and teach in the afternoon.  I have been working hard on my class.  I am creating my own curriculum so Pinterest has become my best friend!  Clayton has also been a big help to me.  There have been a couple of times that I suggested something and he gave me very good feedback that made me tweak my original idea.  He has good insight into what works well for the kids that has been beneficial to me.  I just have to be sure to sort out what is good information, and what is a teenager who is too opinionated :)!

I promise I will get some pictures on here soon!  I've been lacking in that department lately.  You can probably tell that I ditched the 365 day photo project too.  It just got too crazy here.  I did do a photo scavenger hunt that was tons of fun.  We are getting ready to start another one.  My whole family loves helping me find the items on my list.  I'll share the next one with you.

One more thing before I post this.  Thank you to all of you who have commented and encouraged us.  We truly appreciate it.